26.

26 years ago, little ole me was born into this big, crazy world.

I’m feeling… a little ambivilent about the whole thing – well, the being 26 part.  On the one hand, I suppose it is a bit scary to think my twenties are more than halfway over.  But at the same time… I do still have four years left.  So, I guess a big part of me is feeling pressure to make the next four years count.  Not that life ends at 30, lol.

But when I think about being 30, I think about being settled.  It’s the age I imagine I’ll start seriously considering starting a family, buying a home… big things like that.

But… I suppose I’ll save the serious talk for another day.

Currently, my Mom is scurrying around the kitchen cooking me a lovely dinner.  My favorite guy and my sister are on their way to the house.  I have a long list of birthday Facebook messages and texts that have me feeling super special.

I’m happy.  So, I guess that’s a good start to 26.

When I Knew…

December 23rd 2009

We sat near his Christmas tree,
wrapping paper scattered all around us.
Snuggling close together, admiring our new gifts
and enjoying our first Christmas together.
There was a necklace I had been hinting that I’d really like
but instead, he picked out a very pretty pair of earrings by the same designer.
He teased that I was disappointed that it wasn’t the necklace.
Maybe a smidge, but I loved that he picked this on his own.

He looked at me with a twinkle in his eye and said
“ok… well, there may be one.more.present.
You might want to go check in my stocking.”

I jumped up and ran over to look in the stocking.
Inside was the necklace I had been hoping for.
I was so happy!
but not just to see the necklace, although it was pretty and nice…

But nothing compared to the look on his face,
his excitement to surprise me and to see me happy,
the extra planning to make it special.

And, that’s the moment I knew.

I love him.

Now, the moment I actually said it?  Well, that’s a whole other story.

When did you know?